I'm my own person

The Dark is where I find my comfort, it lets me be who I want to be. Not someone everyone wants me to. In the Dark I can be my own person, no shell to hide in and no mask to conceal anything.

I bathe myself in tears, i drown myself in fear. I like what I like and I hate what I hate. I dont have to pretend I dont have to act. here in the Dark I am free.

In reality I am a puppet, its strings constantly being pulled without a care, a puppet used to reach one's goal. I'd cry alone, only in the company of my precious dolls and the Dark. when I sleep, I would sense a presence watching me, normally people would feel uneasy but to me... It made me feel wanted and important in a way. It made me feel secure and somewhat happy.

The feeling of being alone is unbearable. although, you feel at peace you yearn for more. the sound of the wind carrying voices, laughter, happiness, sadness, hatred. emotions that it carries along. It penetrates your soul so deep and makes it impossible to heal.

for now in the eyes of other, I will hide in my shell, I will hide behind my mask and I will be a puppet. Nothing is to change and all I can do is 'Hope'